Thirty Days of Thanks – Motherhood

I am thankful for one of the most natural and demanding task given to women. I am thankful for motherhood.

Having my daughter Mazzy at 32 weeks was quite scary. When you are brushed so close with losing your own life and the life you have created, something inside you wakes up and sees the world in a whole new way. Shortly after I gave birth, I was so afraid of everything. Thinking of leaving this little life had me terrified.

Then something wonderful happened, I rose to the challenge and realized my life was not easy, nor was it meant to be. Because of these trails, I would be stronger. Now the joy of my world was never to be guessed. That part of my life was over. I no longer needed to wonder what my purpose was. It was clear. The joy of my world was in Mazzy.   And every time I see her face,   I know why I am here and why my life matters.   There is truly meaning to life after becoming a mother.

I base my love and feelings off my own experience from the past year. I am thankful for the sheer terror of having a premature baby because now I am much stronger and I pretty much understand that I am not invincible.

I am thankful that in this life,  I will know what unconditional love truly feels like.

My happiness is determined by the smile on my girl’s face.   I am pretty sure that is all I will ever need to feel complete.

I know that we all will go through dark days, and I hope that we can all find something wonderful to bounce us back into the sunshine.

I have found my sunshine and for that I am grateful.